A Good Couple Weeks, now..........

A Good Couple Weeks. . .

This morning I sit here and I'm realizing it's gonna be one of those days. The kind of day where I steal away and cry in the bathroom. Take a few moments in my room when the boys are playing quietly to sit and pray. To lean in to this process of transition and goodbye. I woke up this morning after a really detailed dream about people in my life. I said, "I don't want to leave my friends." On Tuesday I was out running errands and it hit me that I am leaving my protection and security. I am venturing out from underneath Mom's wings. Frank's, Nate's, Brandon's even....

I'm getting older now, so I have learned to not rush out of this place. It will only make me ridiculously hard hearted. So I am crying. I am sighing. I am reminiscing. I am totally hating life at times.

I loved playing my electric guitar this year. What a hoot. I am not playing it yet at Crosswater Church. I will be singing and playing accoustic guitar....Kevin wants me to switch to writing music on my electric. It makes sense, because it's a completely different instrument. So we'll see. I just want to knit right now. I will get a second wind creatively I'm sure this summer. I love when Kevin is on board too. And when he's writing music other than electronica on Garage Band. He's amazing with Garage Band.

I just turned in my completed designs to Aaron for the church logo. He loved them. I also made grayscale examples because he said it needed to look good that way too. My good friend Amy A. said that it's a strong design as far as logos go. I was glad to hear that because I have not designed a logo before and really wanted to do an excellent job. Cherie our children's director asked me to come up with some ideas for the logo for her department. I am going to use a computer for this one, because I think she wants a really eye catching. I'm thinking 3-D design that looks like it's coming off the page. I am going to type in the elements to ppt and mess with their font stuff. I also offered to help with the children's department theme. She liked my idea of Pacific NW river wildlife. I am going to be sketching up ideas for her of fish and other creatures and getting paint swatch samples of colors that would be awesome. The cool thing is Spring is here and this is my favorite colored season.......all the bright new green......you can be sure that color will be in my palette. God brought me a professional quality drafting/art table for $5 off of Craigslist........... so now my work area looks really convincing! hahaa....... It's fun and challenging. A little overwhelming, but, that's usually how things are that I undertake. I love punishment! jk. Thank You God for allowing me to do art for the new church. It's an honor and I need you to inspire and help me.

KNITTING!!!! This is Knit-Shan-Knit after all...........
So, right now, I am knitting premie baby booties to sell at Evergreen Hospital's postpartum center. I think I found a great pattern to use in my baby boots design. The foot is all knit in one piece...very little to weave in at the end. I have four afgans that I am going to make. I want to make baby stuff that is not conventionally colored. The colors for the afgans are: black, kelly green, rust and a crazy granny square quilt. I will post pictures after I finish school and house keeping today.......The premie booties I'm making are light dusty aqua. They are amazing. I would like to get a picture of them on a little one after they sell. The booties I make are boots, knee high. I think I might make leg warmers too....those are popular right now. I get excited about knitting baby items because they are quick to knit. There are so many exciting colors out there to create with.
I'll post pictures in a little bit.

Pray for us that are going to Crosswater. Lift up our planting core team and our friends as we leave the nest. Pray that if we're sad that, we can just be sad and not get ulcers in the process!

Have a blessed day.
As I made coffee today this scripture came to mind:

Isaiah 43:18-20

18 "Forget the former things;

do not dwell on the past.

19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.

20 The wild animals honor me,
the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the desert
and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen

Much love to you today where ever and who ever you are.
The God of love, loves YOU. . .made you and reaches out to you each day.
Take a look at the spring trees and flowers, imagine they are his hands......reaching out to you....
He is more wonderful than you can imagine, ever.........he waits.........
He is splendid and very good. Generous and ready to help with anything.
What would I do if He had not rescued me.
He healed my wounded life and now I will sing to glorify.

Please email me at: psalm333@comcast.net if you need prayer or would like to know more about Jesus.

Today I am having some anxiety, but breathing through it. Hillsong United helping me worship.. . . . kids are peaceful.
I'm gonna vent. . .a little random. . .

God is good. You are so good God. Statements of my faith. Running through my mind, falling from my lips. Praise.

-my beloved Frank births a unbelivably beautiful son and I got to assist her husband and family support her. her birth was worship. . .I am humbled.
-A friend's cousin dies horribly days after she births her baby son, extreme joy, un-measureable pain
-Life and death with God holding them both
-Releasing a sibling and spouse, they are splitting apart. I tried to help them hold it together.....but God removed me from the middle. Now loving sibling through it. Painful, given truth. The truth will hold up, always, but, there will be a choice to a certain extent to not believe the truth. Regardless I thank you for your truth God and pray for grace to turn to it, no matter how I feel.
-Last year I released long time friends that I was holding as an idol. It's been freeing and painful. I trust God with them
. . .open to whatever God asks me to do with them. I am commited to obey and serve Christ in this. It's been interesting waiting. God will work quicker with me out of the way. The love God is asking of me is one of extracting myself. This is painful, but He is holding it.
-This year, crosswater church plant.........where we're going and what God's revealing
-Testing God on his method of financial planning. I see the light, the off ramp is coming. Hallelujah!

Now to what matters the most:
Jesus you are all.


Feeling like I've had a lot of joy and challenges lately, forgetting deep pain and tragic events will balance it out: deepen character and make us more useful to Christ.......a little scary and sad, but I accept it.


We were talking to the boys about bringing friends to church last night. We told Eli that his friend Zach did not know Jesus and that he needs him. Immediately Eli was panicked and insisted that we needed to tell him about Jesus. He was so adamant that I knew that what we have been living before Eli has affected him. Joy. So innocent. We could have told Eli at that moment that not everyone wants our Lord, but we just enjoyed him instead. He'll find out as he grows up. I don't want him to loose this childlikeness to his faith.

I know that you're alive
You came to fix my broken life
I sing to glorify
Your holy name, Jesus Christ.

You changed it all
Broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
in you I am blessed
Now I walk in the light, victorious sight of You.

I'll never be the same.

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falling on my knees in worship
giving all i am to seek your face
lord all i am is yours

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy humble i bow down
in your presence at your throne

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy humbled i bow down
in your presence at your throne

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are
(repeat)

my life
be lifted high
and our world
be lifted high
and our love
be lifted high
(repeat)

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are
(repeat)

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